Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Bloodmoon Patch V1.6.1820 Nocd Patch

praise of slowness

When you really care about something, it's hard to let go. I know I did today with the topic addressed in the afternoon walk with a friend. I let myself get so both from the speech I kept thinking also came home and, apparently, I also felt the need to write about something in this blog ...
The theme: 'love. Indeed, the 'Love.
I, the 'Love with a capital "I do not know what it is. Never tried, at least so far that is. Affection, yes. Attachment, too. Infatuation, devotion, tenderness, sympathy ... I think I can say with reasonable certainty. But Love ', the no. I have not yet had the opportunity.
However, despite not having tried it, an 'idea how it can have one.

The first word that comes to be associated with 'love is "slow". Strange, huh?
But slowly (obviously) I am absolutely convinced that this feeling to grow at a rate so low that it almost nerves. In practice, for me, 'Love is a sloth. A 'terrifying image, I admit, not at all romantic or inspired, but serves to make the right' idea!
With the concept of "slow" introduces the concept of Time. And since we have made to capitalize the 'Love, well let's put the time, that of 'Love is a great friend, contrary to what everyone says (now I feel revolutionary!).
I want to break a lance in favor of Time, too often abused and criticized by love , accused of breaking and wearing (it says its toll?) Reports! All the time seems destined to die, to fall into the habit and what I personally consider one of the great scourges of humanity and I have always been worse scared of the boogeyman hiding under my bed as a child (there was, I swear ...): there was boredom!
not that is so true! Time, in fact, is a great ally, only that we are fools (all, I'll put me in as well) and do not know how to use it well!
Now, let me enlighten you with my great metaphors.
assume that time is a fire. A beautiful little fire crackling, neither too dim nor too high. Right. Now, if we throw ourselves into the fire ... First we are crazy and we should treat us, and secondly we burn. This initial behavior is typical of those who want everything at once and do not let the time the opportunity to do his job, but it "throws" for fear that no steps and come back.
The other option is to sit by the fire and enjoy the warmth without making us any harm, enjoying the warmth ... (I see me with a stupid smile on his face next to my small fire). Time thus becomes a comfort, an ally, a friend who heats up and allows us to capture all the beautiful shades with its light can create ...

temporarily abandon the wonderful world of metaphors.
When we want to do something good, do quickly or slowly, with care?
So I wonder: why, what for the acclaim that is considered more important and is sought in all ways / places / humans, or the 'Love, we do not have the patience to spend a bit 'more? That is the whole 'this rush that surrounds us? Why do we / have / understand everything right away? Where is the care with that? Where is your attention? Where the delicacy, the precision of gesture, time to reflect and make things right?
again with the metaphor: If I want to build a house (and here the friend will say, "No, please, even with this history of homes. "Yes I am stubborn.) I'll have to start from the ground up. If I want the house holds, the foundation must be solid, stable, handled with care. So what do I do? Dig a hole and we put two piles at random? Of course not, I will do things calmly and this will take ... Yes, that's the time!
(Sometimes my logic scares me!).
It is now clear why Time is, dare I say essential?
And the more time we devote to something, the more important and this is what becomes important.
Sure, you could say, now you know, boyfriend tomorrow, the day after we live together. Voila, done. After all, what changes? But this is the importance we give to things that concern us? The importance we give to us, as a result?
I'm sorry, I pass!
What then here you are talking about life ... our to be exact! Do not know about you but I I want particularly to my. I'll be possessive, a little 'selfish, but my life I have treated me, I take care of me ... I really like is that I do not know what to do. Yes, I admit, I'm addicted, it's a terrible habit that I can not root out and I hope not never succeed.
For you, my dear, sometimes boring but always fascinating, life, I just want the best. And they are so willing to spend all the time necessary, to build the house that is the Love 'which I hope will never be completed ...

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Piotr Mackiewicz Wizualizacje

Step 3: done!

had already three days late. The contract was written that the rankings were published on September 17, we were at 20 and still had not seen anything. My anxiety grew with the passage of time, could not take it anymore! I think I have checked and updated the page on the site of the University of Genoa at least forty times ... up as here! Near the "Nursing" appeared to link "Rank". With his heart pounding as I opened the file and I started to scroll through the names ... I did not have a long way: the number 13 was me, my name was a fine show, very proud to occupy that position!
I could not help but let out a yell of happiness, satisfaction, freedom, pride!
I immediately called my mother and I also improvised a dance of victory (making her laugh a lot ...)!
All concerns have melted into a smile that I carry around and still have no plans to leave for a while 'days, I want everybody to know how happy I am!
I've never been so happy to be identified with a simple number: the serial number 3480489 hello!

Captain is back in the sea!

Thursday, September 9, 2010

Primarygames/cubefield

Step 2: Complete! Post

I thought that the anxiety caused by having to deal with the "Phase 2" project of my life vanished after the exam ... Wrong! It is not death, it was only changed: the face of anxiety for the test and not knowing what I will be asked to be passed forward to what I did wrong and the final result.
In short, there is never any respite!
But I want to print on paper (so to speak) the sensations and emotions of those moments, not to forget how it feels.
The uncertainty is compounded by the total and is now unable to do anything: the examination was done, the answers have been given, the crosses were put ... You can not go back!
Yesterday, on the train while returning from Genoa, I tried to think back on all questions of tests and reason above, but my brain refused to take them to memory, I think for a survival instinct to avoid the sudden realization of having done something wrong post REACHED like a bolt from the blue and decreed my moral destruction . I appreciate the thoughtful tilt of my subconscious, but that has prevented me, once I returned home, to bring even a question to my family.
In fact, I remember two: "Which of these countries was an Italian colony?" (Libya) and "Which of these characters Dante meets in hell?" (Farina Uberti). Not much use to remember these two though, because I know I did it right ... Just be sure that only two questions out of 80 ... well ... is not very encouraging!

The next few days will therefore be waiting, not to mention that in any case, I commend to anyone older than me and that is His will that matters ... But it is difficult if you do not coincide with my plans!
inner conflict aspiring Christian ...